Finding the Way Back Home
It's been 3 years since I performed musical theatre. Somehow it has felt like a lifetime and only a moment all at once. This semester I knew that my lack of theatre needed to change. When you take a step back from something that is important in your life, going back to that thing can be challenging. Will I live up to the standards I used to consistently achieve? What if I let everyone down? These are the dangers of following the road home. For me, home is on a stage. Powerful, meaningful, and everlasting. The ability to impact each audience in a different way with each passing scene. Today, I did my first audition in over 2 years. I was terrified, shaking like a leaf. As soon as I finished giving my name and the piano started, it all faded away. Everything in that moment felt like seeing your home for the first time in so long that you don't remember how you could ever leave in the first place. Once it was over, I stepped off the stage and burst into tears. Not of sadness, they were pure joy. Even if I don't make it into the cast for ONU's fall musical, I needed this experience. I needed to climb the mountain to get back home. When in doubt, take the leap. Sign up for the audition and walk in with nothing holding you down. It is the most freeing experience I've had in quite a long time, and I hope that I get to do it again sometime soon.
While reading this, you made me feel inspired. No, I can't sing and you would cringe at my dancing, but I as if I could pick up my drawing hobby again. I am a graphic design major so you would think that I do that all the time right? Sadly, no. Growing up I always was drawing or doodling in class and at home. Now that I'm older, I find it hard to find time for it. I feel that its less important than my school work. Its always been something that calms me and grounds me. I might just start it up again.
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